10.11.2010

"Patience is not simply enduring; it is enduring well!" -President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

"There is an important concept here: patience is not passive resignation, nor is it failing to act because of our fears. Patience means active waiting and enduring. It means staying with something and doing all that we can—working, hoping, and exercising faith; bearing hardship with fortitude, even when the desires of our hearts are delayed. Patience is not simply enduring; it is enduring well!" -President Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "Continue in Patience", April 2010

Something I have learned in the past few months—patience really is a virtue. I was having a really hard time during the summer as I was trying to figure out what I was going to do this upcoming school year on many levels. I felt like I was praying and not receiving any answers.

One morning, I was waiting for an elevator at work, which can sometimes take a while seeing as there are 26 floors. I was worried about being late and three different elevators opened, but they were full of people. Somewhat frustrated, I waited for another one and I just stayed calm. An older man next to me said, “Good things come to those who wait.”  At that moment, the doors of an elevator opened and it was completely empty. Though it was really simple and sounds a little cheesy, those words really struck me and the experience has stayed with me since it happened. In the elevators, there are plaques on the wall by the buttons that say, “Elevate Your Thoughts.” Underneath, there are quotes from the last General conference or scriptures that change every month. I love that concept of elevating our thoughts—thinking positive and looking at things with a more godly perspective. That experience along with others really helped me as I started to be more positive and actively looking for answers to prayers as well as the tender mercies in my life.

A few weeks before school started, I was still trying to make some decisions and things just weren’t feeling right with the things I was considering. I was being more positive though about this time and looking for tender mercies to be answers to my prayers. My major, where I was going to live, and how to balance everything between school, work, and sorority presidency.

 I had decided on speech pathology, then suddenly, I was thinking of getting my business major and going on to get my MBA to be a health care administrator. One Sunday night, my parents talked to me about that plan and I had a meltdown. I realized that it didn't seem as right as I thought it did. I dropped all of my business classes, then I put myself into Speech Pathology classes again. I officially declared my major and that was it. I just hoped I was doing the right thing and I was excited to finally be headed in some direction.

Then, things weren't really meshing when I was looking at places to live as far as roommates and places we had looked at. I spent entire days looking at divvy apartments and calling about ads. The day I was going to sign a contract for a cute basement apartment, I took my parents with me. The entire time I was there I felt like I was going to throw up. As my mom talked to the previous renter and my dad discussed with the owner how things would go down, I started to not feel right about some things we were finding out. And I just felt sick (literally and figuratively) about the place. I didn't sign the contract and I made the decision to live at home, even though I wasn't sure about it at the time. I’m so glad that we have been given the gift of the Holy Ghost. It is one of the best gifts we have been so generously given and it's funny how the Spirit speaks to us sometimes-by making us feel ill about decisions. That same night, there was a huge multi-stake fireside with Elder Russell M. Nelson and his wife, Wendy Watson Nelson. It was such an amazing fireside and I heard things I needed to hear. It was such a testimony building experience and my decisions started to feel right. Even though I felt like I still didn't have a definite answer, I felt like finally everything was starting to fall into place after months of going back and forth.

Soon after that experience and school started, I came to the realization that you don't always need a definite answer. God trusted us enough to give us agency and He will not hold anything back from our lives as long as we make good decisions and He will put road blocks in our way if we aren't supposed to head down a particular course. It is crucial to stay in tune with the Spirit and live worthy of God's guidance. I honestly don't know what I'd do in my life without my religion. Now, everything feels so right to me. Living at home, my major, my life. It is such a good feeling and I know it is just one of many blessings of the Spirit and being patient. Keep holding on. Things do work out for our good as long as we do what is right and have faith in God’s timing and plan for us. 

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